Here is Where I Stand

It’s been a long month. A long month. Each and every day has felt almost painfully long. I felt like I had almost lost my job, I’ve had the first full blown anxiety attack in two years, and I may have also lost an opportunity at furthering my career. I feel like I’m lost, and I feel like I’m listing. I feel less like I’m at a crossroads, more that I am adrift in the Dead Sea.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been without a goal. For the last three years or so, my goal was singular and no matter how I drifted from that goal, somewhere deep in my being I kept moving forward with it. I kept pursuing it whether out of stubbornness and refusal to admit defeat, or hope that I’d actually make something of the new life I was striving towards. Those that are near me know what it is, know the ins and outs of it, and know that while I was far from the only one at fault (the other party admits this), I have my own weight to bear in it and bear it I shall.

I’ve kept this whole thing private; I’ve never said anything public to anyone and I am proud of that. Friends that I thought weren’t anymore have come to me and asked me why I didn’t come out swinging like the other person involved, and others have asked what was going on because all they heard was one side of the story. I stayed respectful, and in my opinion, that respect wasn’t returned, and that is the only slight I will give that person. I fully expect her to read this and act as she has done in the past, and in putting this up I expose myself to that. You know what? You kick a man when he’s down and searching for a wall to brace against, what does that make you? I’ve gained friends over this, and the one friendship I thought was at risk I managed to save. No matter how righteously a fire burns, it still warns people to keep their distance. I feel I’m not the one that needs to learn that lesson.

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VIDEO – Brexit: The Movie

“The EU isn’t undemocratic. It’s anti-democratic.”

I guess just by the title of the video you can guess where I stand on the matter. I actually had to re-sign the electoral register since I’d moved out of my local borough, and I did it specifically because while I’m not necessarily into the political system (though I talk about political ideals), I feel obliged to vote in the EU referendum in July.

This movie had to be kick-started. There was no government funding involved, and it shows a side to the EU that the bureaucrats don’t want us to see. The EU is at odds with the UK political system because the MEPs have no real power, and those within the EU that have said power cannot be voted out like we can remove a party from power in the UK. The referendum is, as a generation, our only chance to do what our parents and grandparents didn’t.

The movie is an hour and eleven minutes long, but the Brexit: The Movie website has the full film broken down into chunks for sporadic viewing.

I implore everyone to watch it before they vote. Whether it changes minds or not is inconsequential. The Remain campaign has done it’s best to monopolise the media with celebrity personalities and (in my opinion) wanting statistics. There is little information available for the Leave campaign that isn’t dismissed as xenophobia or right-wing drivel. If you can vote in this referendum, you have an obligation to learn and vote in a way that suits your morals and standards, no matter what they are. If you forgo your right to speak, you may find that right is no longer yours to have.