You're a vile one, Mr. Grinch

So Christmas is coming; it’s a week away, in fact. Everyone is all so cheery and for some reason, I just can’t get into it. I don’t know what the problem is, but I just haven’t got the Christmas spirit this year. I’m buying gifts and such for people, and that’s all well and good, but I’m still not feeling it. I guess it’s down to the way the family is at the moment. Things are a little frictional right now, and I guess that’s affecting everything. But at the same time, I’m 21 tomorrow. I’m supposed to be having a day just to myself, and I’m not feeling it. I’ll smile, say thank you for the presents and make my calls to people who sent cards, but at the same time it just feels like any other day. I’m not anticipating anything, and I can’t figure out why.

I’ve almost been bored as of late. Aion keeps me entertained (I’ve found myself highly invested in the economy, pun not intended but still dismally bad), but outside of that I’m not feeling like I used to. I’m working through my course and I’m enjoying it, but I’m at a dead end while they send the next set of materials/booklets for me to read through and get tested on. My driving lesson yesterday was terrible, and even though the instructor said everyone has those days, it still doesn’t change anything when I’m stalling at a junction three months after I learned how to move off. I guess I’m just burnt out on everything at the moment. Well, apart from Aion. I doubt I’ll get tired of that the way I’m levelling up. Level 41, which isn’t bad considering how I’ve hardly done any instances. =]

I’ve been replaying Mirror’s Edge with this lazy attitude and it actually makes the game better. Not being in the hyper mode of ‘wthisam’ or What The Hell Is Shooting At Me makes the experience much more enjoyable. I’m starting to see the ‘flow’ of scenery into a path, even with runner-vision disabled (I’m still playing on normal, I just don’t have the red turned on). It’s weird though, that out of all the games I would say are much more rewarding for me to play, that I play one that I’ve already completed and thought I’d already taken everything out of the experience that I was going to get. Weird.

I might just take my camera out tomorrow and go into the fields (after the whole birthday thing). Wrap up warm and just see if there’s anything worth taking a photo of. I don’t expect any massive spiritual overhaul while I’m freezing my ass off; I just want to do something, and I’ve wanted to take some pictures in a while. Maybe Photoshop them when I get home, mess about with the colour etc. Just something to do that’ll have an actual result at the end of it.

Got work today as well; got a big visit tomorrow so I’m helping out with the stock and making sure that the store is perfect. At least, that’s what I’ve been told. I’d better not be put on the till, otherwise I’ll just stop doing overtime for a while again. I don’t mind being on the till (especially when it’s busy), but I do mind being lied to just to get me inside the door. And since it’s overtime, I don’t think they can put me in front of a disciplinary like they did when the dog had his incident. Wouldn’t want to gamble on that though. Not working tomorrow, which is good. I didn’t fancy going into work on my 21st. Call me juvenile, but I don’t want to work on my birthday.

I’ll be back tomorrow with a post or two, with what I got for my birthday, and perhaps I’ll take myself up on the photos. Anything to get me out of this house at the moment.

Also, because it is warranted.

I will steal Christmas. And early copies of Mass Effect 2.